Here, take all these things,
If they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams
'Cause you meant the world
So did I deserve
To be left here hurt?
I'll give it all up, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much, but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
So all this love I gave you, take it away
You think material's the reason I came
If I had nothing would you want me to say
You keep your money, take it all away
-Takin' back my love, Enrique Iglesias feat Ciara
I'm thankful for my friends companionship just as well, I wonder how I would have been able to make it through on my own and I'm glad I didn't have to with Elisa, Elyn, Kern, JeanJean and everyone else in my blog list. I like reading blogs and see what everyone else is doing and buying :D
The problem with Uncle P. is still unresolved, as well as with the wig seller, she was upset when she saw that I made a post about her and threw a fit. So I promised her that when everything else is resolved, I would remove my post as well as the post I made in her thread. But so far, although negotiations were on the way, we're at a standstill with her only willing to return me RM11 that she said were the profits from the sales.
Talking about confrontation, I recently recieved news on a rumor about me. Something that shocked me quite a bit. I'm not going to go into details about this but I must admit that I'm a little depressed about it, if this gets out, my reputation might be on the line. A reputation I spent 25 years guarding.
Penang is a really small island where news can really get around. And exactly because of that reason, I gave no one any chances to even bitch about me and relationships with guys. Then again, it's also because I go by a very strict principle when it comes to relationship with guys. There are a few unspoken rules between me and E as well as myself. Call this self imposing but I can do without all the dramas.
First things are,
I would never never never date my best friend exes or my best friend's current boy friend
I would never flirt with married men
I would never kiss or sleep with anyone who's not my boyfriend
No one night stands, no flings
A break up is a break up thus I don't sleep with my exes.
These are few rules that does not have exeptions. This is my principles in life. Call me rigid, call me party pooper, call me a saint wannabe, call me whatever but at the very least, you can't call me a slut. :D
Perhaps it's because of these rules that the rumors really hurts furthermore it came from someone close who's also not the type to lie. So what now? I need to clarify and settle this one soon, very soon before I break out anymore pimples. Another confrontation to handle but I'm sure this is just a misunderstanding or a case of mistaken identity :)
I'm so confused. I hate confrontations and these problem really broke me out in pimples, nightmares and insomia. I'm just so exhausted. I really am. I just wanna go sleep and wake up without any of these petty problems weighting me down like this. Yes, I said petty, but I'm the type that would like to clear everything off so I can sleep with a peace of mind at night.
With the money I got from Pinky Doodle doo on my birthday, I used it to buy... pimple cream. Yes I did. I finally got the big bottle of the Dermedex Refining Cream after buying, trying and loving the samples that I've been buying for a year or so. I forked out a little more since this cost me RM138 and I actually felt guilty spending my sister's money. I wanted to save it up for rainy days but after all the problems and never ending pimples, I had to get it before I lose my mind and face to these pesky drama queens.
The box and the ingredients used
I weigh myself at the gym a couple of days ago and it's so funny how I used to be 47.5kg with a 23 inch waist just a month ago and right now, I weigh 52kg and I hop around maniacally just to zip my jeans.
Wake me up when July ends....
P.s: Elyn, how's everything? Are you getting better?