Merry Belated Christmas!!

My blog is half dead. Barely one a a half years old and already close to kicking the bucket. I sit here half wondering if there's anyone out there still reading my crap.

Not to mention, I've been one heck of a lousy friend. That I'll admit. I'm truly sorry for the lack of calls and sms-es of late. Then again, there's only a handful of people that I actually call to gossip with anyway.

Dear Kern,
Hope you're okay. Been missing you alot. It's been how long since I last saw you?

Dear E,
I think, this is probably the only Christmas in a decade or so when I'm actually in Penang and did not meet up with you. I know you're busy working but I hope you haven't forgotten about me. You said we could meet up, but I guess you forgot since you never called back. Will give you a hug nevertheless when I do see you.

Dear Elyn,
I'm fine here. Been extremely tired and feeling lazy. Had fever for close to two weeks and felt all shitty. I really hope to see you soon but our timing has been extremely off since I started working. I work on Sundays too so it's really a pain in the ass that I can't see you. I miss our precious moments together sitting down for coffee as you give me advises on life. I really miss that.

I'm sorry if my sms has been far in between but believe me, you have not been forgotten. Love you lots.

Dear TJ,
I'm super happy to see that you blog is doing super well. I'm still loving your drawings and I'm still envious of the weather there. The weather here is still pretty much 'hot as hell' and probably will remains so till after February. I.must.endure.yet.again.

Christmas

The weirdest but much loved Christmas 'tree', it's actually made from Jobe's fishing nets and the ornaments are fish lures and such XD
Pressies galoreeeee

Christmas eve was spent in the Clubhouse. It's a little sad to know that this will be the last Christmas at the Clubhouse before it's shifted to a new location. I'm hope that despite the move, everything else will remain the same. I suppose there's still GameForge left. Everyone's been meeting there anyway after getting hooked on Magic Cards.

Left to right: Not the best picture but atleast I have something for our first Christmas together; The girls; now ain't Pinky Doodle doo hot?! (the one in white) :D

Oh btw, i.HATE.magic.cards. I only like the pretty angels/unicorn pictures on them but seeing how the guys are so hooked on them is incredible. I used to laugh and tell JH that even if I were to strip down naked and prance around the room doing gymnastics, I highly doubt the guys would notice or bat an eyelash.

It's Christmas and what are the guys doing? Christmas drafting... *shakes fist at JH* This was all your idea!

Seriously.

Anyway instead of the usual Gift Exchange for Christmas, the guys in CH decided they want it to be 'Dirty Santa' style this year so be it. Tons of rules and tons of blur faces (including mine since I know jack shit what was dirty Santa all about) So anyway everyone's allowed to pick a present, open it, show it to everyone and the person after you gets to exchange the present with you if he/she decides that they don't like their gifts. Worst, you can't say no.

But anyway, I ended up with some shower gel and body lotion along with a bar of Hershey Chocolate after deciding to steal from Flo. Thanks Padios! *thumbs up for the good taste*

Pinky Doodle Doo ended up with Patrick the dog soft toy and JH ended up with an extremely cool looking tumbler thanks to Khim Sun. Khim Sun unfortunately, ended up with my pink Hello Kitty tupperware. GG to the poor guy.

The manliest man with a cutest Pink Hello Kitty Tupperware. Awwwwww...

Left to right: Tats, Jobe, Padios and kalarblind ninja, Fons doing the shotgun

Jobe is still the champion of shotgunning at 2 point something seconds? That's how fast he finished a can of beer. It's always fun to watch the guys do this, it's incredible how fast they are. And if we're lucky, the beer will come out from their noses XD

Tats decided he wants some Tribal tatoos for a day; Pictures curtesy of unknown CH member via FB

Oh another tip, never fall asleep in the CH, embarrassing pictures of you will always turn up. I've gotten a couple of my own but nothing as spectular as Tat's 'temporary' tats. Then again, I don't think anyone got anything better than Tats. Lucky Dawg.

XD

Christmas Lunch @ Momo's place

I looked like crap but the expression on Tat's face is worth a million bucks. Muahahahahhahaha, that goes to show that one should never make funky faces too often at the camera cause someone might just get a shot of it and post it up on FB. Good timing, Pinky Doodle Doo!

STBY Tats

Early Christmas Potluck Party in the office. I ended up with an orange hand towel. LMAO!

Our company's 85th Anniversary on the 20th December 2009 at the Equatorial Hotel, Penang
The pretty lady on the right is my manager :D

ROTD

The one thing I was looking forward to after leaving my previous job was the fact that I don't have to deal with stalkers or 'dirty' old men. How many times has it been when I wanted to quit my job so that I could scream, curse and give them a piece of my mind?

I have no interest in being a mistress despite the offer of an apartment, a car and a four figure monthly allowance and no, I don't know or rather not know when you say, "You know what I want". Understand that not every girl can be easily swayed with promises of money, I may not be rich but my ego, pride and dignity far outweighs the offer. Not to mention, he was like what, my father's age?

Stalking me on my blog, FB, Friendster, Plurk is plain annoying, you won't gain my respect that way either. You might congratulate yourself on finding out all these in 2 days and being so resourceful but take my advise and go do something more productive with your life. Go bake cookie for the poor or something. Sheesh! They'll thank you for it at least.

But all these is in the past. For the current two working months, I've been happily left alone. Till about two weeks ago.

I really never expected that I would end up having the same problem while working where I am working now.

I have apologized to JH because ever since we started going out, all he seems to be doing is beating off stalkers with a bat. Perhaps that's also why, he's really my knight in shiny amour.

This has been giving me a lot of mental anguish, depression as well as sleepless night; cause the psycho kept calling me in the middle of the night about 1am or 2am. I need to remember to switch my phone off before going to bed. Calling me 5 times a day during my working hour is a nuisance as well and when I do pick up, he ask if I was working. Is he an idiot or something? Obviously I'll be working, what time is it? You know very well where I work since that's where you first saw me right and called pretending to enquire about one of our packages. You numb nut.

Yes, you must be patting yourself in the back for harassing me with 3 numbers now but I'm patting myself on my back knowing full well all 3 numbers are on my 'rejects' list along with another psychotic, obsessed fool and his delusional wife.

No female like to be annoyed by an idiot who can't even tell his own name and start the conversation with dirty talk. Get a life and get it soon!

When I find out who you are, I'll be sure to you get what you deserve!

I'm really not sure why but JH had jokingly mentioned that I am a maniac magnet. I suppose so with my track record.

So totally not something to be proud off. I rather be a stud magnet. Where have all the studs gone?

Black and Green EOTD, Dr.Jart+ BB cream

It's been a while.. a looong while since I last did anything on the blog. Work has started to be much busier. More running around, more calls and research, but still all is still well I'm happy to say.

Since a couple of months back, I've been playing with the idea of using green and black for the eyes. Tried it once and it turned out awful. Decided to try it again just for the heck of it today and thankfully it came out alright, I think.

I saw this sales lady in Chanel using this incredibly beautiful, striking green eyeliner under her eyes and black eyeshadow on the top. The green was so fabulous and so was the price tag for the eyeliner. A shocking RM70 for a pencil!! RM70 would have fed me for a good one week! Being a cheapskate thrifty person that I am, I decided to look for an alternative to the pencil. Weeks later I 'somewhat' found on in Etude House.

MAC Crayon eye pencil in Ebony that Elyn gave me a while ago and the Etude house Eye Glow Pencil in Evergreen

Eye Glow Pencil in Evergreen. No, it doesn't turn your eyes into flash lights and literally glow in the dark, sadly. *snort* The green was different from the Chanel one since it's way more shimmery and the colour less intense and duller. But it was the closest I could find. Note that the search was among the cheaper brands, I did not try Christian Dior, Estee Lauder, Anna Sui, Bobbi Brown whatever. It was among drug store brands.

Using that is like I said, too shimmery, I wanted an intense bright green, so ta daaa, pull out my no brand 88 colour palette, ee nee mee nee my nee mo and chose a nice bright green.

Left to right: This, this!!; Start off looking like that

If Ekimura and Elisa is the Queens of Fresh, simple and elegant looks, I must the the Queen of the Lazies. Seriously. The eye make up has been once since 7.15am when I woke up and slap on some for work. Yes, I work on Sundays albiet half day. Weird right? So anyway, I am far too lazy to ever wash off my remaining eye shadow just to put them on again. In my little lazy head, that doesn't make sense. So what I do is use a Q-tip, wipe off the inner corner and began my experiment.

Do it the lazy way

Use Evergreen on inner corner of eyes. It'll serve as a base for the green later on anyway. Draw draw draw and then move in with the black eyeliner.

Using the black eyeliner draw 3/4 from the middle to the outer corner according to eye shape. In comes the green eyeshadow from the no brand palatte. Try to blend the eyeshadows and the liner together.

Use black eyeshadow and blend everything together. Make sure you shape and frame the eyes nicely. Wait does that even make any sense? Put on some falsies and we're almost done.

Blend more with the black and smoke it out a little bit more and what do you have? A green and black EOTD done the lazy way and in only 5 minutes. Yay! Can't complain on the time if you're in a rush and want something to brighten up your face.

EEch, I talk as if I am an expert when I barely know what the hell I'm doing. Nyahahahhaa.

Yes, old pictures, I had my extension on so that means, it's way before my Singapore trip when my skin was still a-okay. As you know from my previous post, I finally caved in and bought the Rejuvenationg BB cream from Dr.Jart+. Reviews has been great, no problems, great coverage, improvement of the skin. To each their own but for me. It make me break out - BAD!

It was the tiny, super annoying ones that came out in full force like in Warhammer 40k's orcs. I doubt you'll understand but lets just say alot alot then. Think rave party with free flow of beer type or... Hello Kitty cosmetic launch. That should be easier to understand.

Unfortunately for me, I discover the reason for my continue break out late. But anyway my skin has gotten better after endless mask, crying, stressing up, ranting, whinny, T3 oil, dermedex and so forth. Note that, only 3 of the above actually helped my skin. I might just give the Dr.Jart another go to doube confirm. *Gulp*

The reason why I hate blood test. I have a good reason to. By the way, my arm still hurts. It feels bruised and painful, I'm not talking about the bruised part but the length of my arm. I think someone hit my muscles. T.T

NOOOOO! MINE!

Fridays are supposed to be perfect. It's a half day work on Fridays (we work the other half day on Sundays T.T) , getting to spend time with my love and etc. but today, everything was starting to go downhill and wrong starting midday. First, I headed to the MO (Medical Officer) hoping to get some medicine for my fever. It's been a week since the fever started and I'm still having it and weirdly it only comes during night time. During the day, I look and feel perfectly fine.

As I was sitting there waiting for my turn, I crossed my fingers that the doctor won't kick me out for seeing him for such a minor problem. When my turn came and after 5 minutes, I was sent off for a chest x-ray, blood test and pharmacy to collect some paracetamol. And to come back on Sunday for a review with the MO. WTF!

All I wanted was some pills for my fever, instead I ended up parting with my precious blood. Yes, I have an issue with blood test cause I have this fear of needles/syringes. I panicked and kept asking the doctor if I really need a blood test and that I feel fine. He said yes, since I've had my fever for a week now and Panadol didn't work, he wanted me to double check in case I contacted something from the hospital. I don't care if I don't have to pay but it's mineeee! *whines illogically*

NOOOOOO! I'm perfectly fine except for the fever. I can still run a marathon! And I've been putting on weight with no lose of appetite. Gimme back my blood, you blood suckers!

A weekend trip to Singapore

It's been a while since I updated; been kind of busy this past month. Starting a new job and spending more time with my love. I don't think I'll be posting any EOTD although I have a few in mind mostly cause I got a super bad breakout. Posting of any EOTD/FOTD will no doubt get me complains for traumatizing my readers.

I kept wondering why was it that my face wasn't getting any better despite everything I've done, only to realize that the Dr.Jart+ was giving me the problem. ARGH. My life is fantastic. I spend Rm100 on a too dark BB cream and another RM80 on a BB cream that makes me break out. STBM (Sucks to be me) I'm back to using my SkinFood Aloe BB cream and Etude House Magic BB cream (dang, it's oily)

L'amour de la mia vita <3>

But anyway, Me and JH headed over to Singapore on the weekend for his friend's wedding. I ended up with a bad break out and was sick. Yes yes, STBM again but being in Singapore was fun. Lots of memories and getting to try out new things is always interesting. The wedding made me feel a little 'weird'. It was beautiful and all but it sort of really made me realize how many of our friends has already gotten married. Even Grace, me and Elisa's school mate is having her wedding dinner in January 2010 and a colleague of mine is having her engagement party this month! Ahhh~

I keep comforting myself that no matter what, in the end, I'll always have El ... myself *cough*

But anyway, while in Singapore, JH took me to one of his favourite breakfast place, the Hediard. The chocolate croissant is to die for, and so is the hot chocolate. I'm secretly quite pleased that JH has a sweet tooth and a love for chocolate like I do. Of course, he tends to be picky and for me, I'm just much greedier. There I admit it.

Left to right: Aint the outside pwetty?; The breakfast set

I'm proud to say I refrain myself from overspending in Singapore. In fact I hardly bought anything at all. I have not recieved my paycheck yet and since the Singapore currency is much stronger than ours, I couldn't help doing mental calculation for everything.

(amount x 2.5 = *gasp*)

Left to right: Went all the way there to buy Mark & Spencer >.>;; Ardell Lash Grip Adhesive

Yes yes, I have a thing for Rose scents. Some might complain it's a little 'aunty-ish' but I love them. Wish I bought more as gifts but I really was on a super tight budget T.T. Saw lots of Ardell's eyelashes in Guardian much to my suprise and they were going for about S$8.99 which after conversion is pretty much the price of a DUO lash Adhesive (I think, mine was a birthday gift from Elyn which I'm still hapily using)

On the last say, I got these, the Mavala Eyeliner was on the bargain bin :D and since I don't have a proper liquid eyeliner I grabbed one. The put it back on discovering it was Blue in colour. Thankfully they have one in Brown. So far, the lasting power is really good but I hate the brush. It's too thin and a total pain in the *toot* to draw a straight line.

Lookiee, I bought a Maybelline products! I'm suprised myself. I heard good reviews about the mascara for some time now but since it wasn't available in Malaysia I had given up on ever buying it. So while waiting for our flight, I was browsing through the cosmetic section looking at mascaras when JH pointed out that I was at the Maybelline booth. I didn't even realize. My eyes were firmly locked on the Collosal Volume Mascara. Whee! Now lets see if this is any good. I've removed all my eye extensions anyway. Not bad, this round, it lasted for a good one month!

In the end I had a great time in Singapore despite being sick. Walking down the street holding hands, having breakfast tongether and cuddling on the sofa, to some it might be the usual but to me, this simple acts leave me all happy and it's been a while since I'm this contented. *Purrs*

NOTD

One word to decribe the above.

LAZY

Use your own imagination, I’ve ran out of mine

This entry was written back in 2007 after getting my first job. I worked in a printing press and my boss was a fantastic person whom I've come to love and admire. He passed away early this year, a day before my birthday and I've been missing him since.

The reason, I decided to post this up again is because it's such a contrast between then and now. I'm currently working in a place filled with females as well. And despite knowing them for just 3 weeks, I've loving every one of them. My female boss is someone worth admiring. Someone who inspires and I love working under her. I don't dread going to work and I look forward to each day despite the occasional hectic schedule.

Here it goes:

Time stops and waits for no man (or woman), it goes on regardless of anything. Some say time heals all wounds, but time also deepens some old wounds just as well.

I must admit though, I sometimes wished that there was a
rewind button, a fast forward, and a reset button. A save point would be nice too. But I guess when shit happens, it happens, with or without a cause and life ain’t The Sims. Don’t like how your life went today? No problem. Reset. Restart. End of problems.

And unlike the Sims where your character never ages and never worry about having wrinkles or having to buy expensive night creams that promises miracles in a jar that can go up to 4 figures.

Look around you and you’ll see your family, friends, lovers physically changing, to put it in a way - aging. Every day, every minute, new lines appears and old one deepens. But I’m digressing. I’m not trying to sell anyone any empty promises of another miracle anti-wrinkle, anti-pigmentation, anti-spots, and also cures black circles and puffiness from eyes all while having skin whitening, skin radiating, skin lifting ingredients that tightens your face so you look a gazillion years younger that banishes every crow line around your eyes that you have faithfully accumulated through out the ages and lines that you had due to excessive smoking and maybe who knows, swearing and cursing.

*Ahem* Like I earlier mentioned, I’m digressing. I seem to have a problem braking once started on a face product.

So while everyone starts aging. I can’t say ‘grow up’ since there are some people that I know who thinks they are Peter Pan and lives in Never Neverland where growing up is not the main issue. Sure the body changes but the mentality or the way they think seems stuck at one phase of life and likes it there.

Talking about Mr.Pan. I wonder, how old is he anyway?

But anyway since Mr.Pan doesn’t need to pay for anti-wrinkle creams (imagine how much he manage to save!), he don’t need to find a job. And since he doesn’t have a job, then he doesn’t need qualifications (such as a pass in maths, science, whatever and whatever) colleges and universities are probably not even in his dictionary. All unless Captain Hook decided to open a bar on his ship and is hiring waiters who needs to pass their maths and something or another and Peter happen to be interested since he’s considering getting liposuction on his already thin thighs and some enlargement somewhere.

So anyway, the rat race in life begins, going out to work so that they can afford to buy anti-wrinkle creams, liposuction, botox, collegen and such. This is the time when we meet people from all walks of life. And their colorful personality.

I have recently entered the rat race too, so that I too can afford anti-wrinkle creams for the lines that I get from being stressed out at work. *ahem*

And talking about colors, hell, the people here puts the poor rainbow to shame. We have so many colors here; we can’t even name all the colors yet. But if were ever to name these individual colors I hope there will be a nice ‘name’ to name a bitter, menopause hag who dedicates her life to making my life miserable. Talk about devotion. If the above mentioned person would devote her life to make me rich, then I could even hire Bill Gates himself to open the gates to my home every time I wanted it opened.

I would stand outside and yell, ‘Open Peanuts’ (I don’t like Sesame seeds, I used to pick/ scrap them off my buns) and Old Bill would faithfully open my gates.

I’m not the best of people as I too have my good, bad and ugly side. But usually I stay on neutral mode till someone shifts me up or down.

It does make me wonder though. Perhaps people who have worked in a certain place for too long have a higher tendency to be a little mentally unstable at the end of the day. Coupled with menopause which causes even the most normal of normal woman to go a little berserk, I’m fearful.

*I'm not trying to stereotype here. I currently have one colleague who's 60+ and is a fantastic person. Everyone in the office calls her 'mummy' :D

Working six full days a week plus over time, does anyone still have a life after this? Perhaps looking at her little jars of ‘miracle’ creams she can afford makes her happy and that’s what drives her on. But for me, it’s completely and utterly beyond me. Oh, probably making other people’s life difficult and miserable makes them very happy. Some form of entertainment.

Day in, day out and over the next few years, the world shrinks and shrinks till it becomes just your home, workplace and wherever they actually go to buy their ‘miracle’ creams. It doesn’t bother me when her world shrinks, but I wish her brains wouldn’t shrink along with the shrinking of the world.

How could a woman her age think the way she does. Part of me has given up on the job. Getting a job is pretty much like marrying to the factory /company. And I were to marry, to my job or to a guy, I would because I had:

• fallen in love
• had no other choice
  

(IE: Which I also believe, everyone has a choice)

I happen to quite like choice number one. Sure, not all of us are lucky enough to find our one true love or soul mates but how many of us want to marry someone we dislike or hated for the rest of our life. Certainly not me. I rather be a spinster than to marry a complete asshole. Of course, some guys don’t turn out to be complete assholes till a few years into marriage. They usually just start off as assholes first. Hey, they had to begin some where right?

So back to the topic, the above above mention woman will definitely be in the running – AGAIN, for the coveted prize of ‘Assholic person of the year 2007” So book your seats early and remember to pelt them with rotten tomatoes. (The price of eggs has gone up, tomatoes are cheaper)

Baby Doll FOTD

I was bored and the thought of doing a baby doll look came up, browse through the web and found this one picture that started everything, unfortunately, for some strange reason I forgot to save the picture.

This was done a couple of weeks ago (26th October to be exact, 2 days before the Purple Blue EOTD ) and I thought it was a little too silly to be posted up but then I remembered I did this look for fun; it's meant for laughs, please don't take this seriously. It's not meant to be a 'pretty' look and I expect comments along the line of "OMG, it's scary" and just a lot of laughter. Afterall, this is coming from someone who wrote a sonnet to a cupcake in her free time >.<;;

Note that this is not the usual Japanese Baby doll look which is usually very pink, cute and pretty, this is more towards exaggeration, silliness and on some parts, down right scary.

This is not the picture I used as reference but the looks is somewhat similar
Yammylicious

I'm envious the girl did her Cosmetic course, I didn't manage to scrap enough money to attend the one I wanted to XD

You can tell that this has been some time ago since, my contact lenses are still brown and I have not done my eyelash extension yet
Left to right: Pile on the foundation then the blusher; Apply some shimmery white eye shadow

*Sigh* My skin was looking fabulous then, everything went downhill after tremendous stress and during Halloween night, I used some wrong products which results in a bad breakout which I'm still trying to do 'breakout control' today. But despite the no problem skin then, I used a hell lot of foundation to achieve the fair complexion. In this case, I used the Elianto's fresh whitening foundation stick I got some time ago that turned out way too fair for me. Pile it on like no tomorrow, smooth it all out, apply loose powder and apply some blusher. I choose my pink-iest blusher, MAC Don't be Shy.

Applied some shimmery white eyeshadow, this was in a stick form and it burned my eye like *toot* It must have gone bad or something cause it seriously burned! It almost felt like applying chillies to your eyes. That aside, draw your black eyeliner, smudge it with a brown + black eye shadow and get your falsies ready.

Left to right: Falsies - DONE!; Here, admire my super thick make up XD

This look would have looked better if I had proper lower falsies but unfortunately, I don't. Not to mention, the picture which got me all inspired also didn't use the proper lower falsies. Draw my eye brows with a light hand, don on a wig, pin some flowers in my hair, put on a stupid look and ta-daaaa, you'll get this...

It's really times like this, I wish I know how to use photoshop

I'm fairly confident, my boyfriend won't have anything nice to say regarding this but please remember, this was done prior to Halloween and it's for fun :D

For some strange reason, I have the urge to re-do this entire look again. I'm not satisfied. Perhaps the next time, it ought to either be more wearable after all Halloween is not everyday or maybe it just ought to be sillier. More exaggerated. Maybe, I'll even use pink eyeshadow for a change. Hmmmm, decisions, decisions..

A mix of MAC Totally Fab and Totally It. Hmm... what a coincidence