Awards

A biggie thank you to JeanJean for passing this award to me!

• Where's your cell phone: I have no idea, somewhere in my room
  
• Your hair: Fine, straight and short
  
• Your mother: What about her?
  
• Your father: What about him?
  
• Favorite Food: Japanese and Italian
  
• Dream last night: None that I remember
  
• Favorite drink: Coffee
  
• What room are you in: Bedroom
  
• Hobby: Reading, collecting make up, hanging out with friends
  
• Fear: Insects, disappointing people
  
• Where were you last night: Out clubbing
  
• Something that you aren't: A slut
  
• Muffins: YUM!
  
• Wish list item: A ring. I'm tired of wearing my ex's ring. Not because I still have feelings for him but because I have no other rings to wear T.T
  
• Where did you grow up: Penang, Malaysia
  
• What are you wearing: My birthday suit
  
• Your pets: None
  
• Friends: I thank god the day I found these bunch of supportive, fun, lovable people
  
• Something you're not wearing: Mid drifts
  
• Favorite store: None
  
• Favorite color: Pink and white
  
• Last time you laughed: A few minutes ago
  
• Your best friends : Elisa
  
• Place you go to over and over: Shopping malls, Elisa's house
  
• Person who emails you regularly: Clubhouse mails
  
• Favorite place to eat: Anywhere is fine

And this one came from Victoria, a sweet girl from VeeThree<3

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1. Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
3. Link to the person who nominated you for this award.
4. Name 7 things about yourself that people might find interesting.

1. Has gotten herself a boyfriend - went into GameForge and purchased him off the shelves. XD Kidding
2. Is a terrible liar - Thus I don't lie, takes up too much memory space to remember what you were lying about
3. Enjoys yoga - Bending the body in positions you are not normally in can be so satisfying
4. Has been reading romance novels - A few years ago, you wouldn't catch me even near one
5. Loves to eat waffles and pancakes
6. Is allergic to stupid and/or immature people, makes me break out - Stupidity is contagious, be careful
7. Took her 2 hours to think about what's interesting about her.

Damn, I forgot to put a title; Purple Blue EOTD + wig

Pringles potato chips : Once you pop you can't stop

My version: Once it pops out, it can't stop

If my pimples has a slogan, that would probably be it. That aside, while doing the last ROTD, I came to realize that I have not been doing much EOTD or anything. Partly because I have no motivation and partly because I just didn't think I was good or anything. In the end, I kind of forgot how fun it was to just sit down and do an EOTD. It really is relaxing, looking at the palette and the only worries is which colour today and which colour goes with which.

Wanted to try something different from what I usually did so all I could do was this. I used purple, a colour I tend to avoid since it makes me looked bruised and blue, my favourite eye shadow colour. A colour I just can't go wrong with. I was absolutely clueless about what colour lipstick to use so I ended up with Nyx's Circe. A nude colour lipstick topped with MJ's Honey pump lip gloss. MAC Petticoat on the cheeks lightly dusted with The Body Shop's Shimmer Wave in Peach.

All this is from the 88 colour palette that I got some time ago. If you're wondering about the sudden hair growth. Don't panic, it's a wig. The wig I ordered nearly a gazillion years ago arrived in good condition. It was shockingly in a very similiar colour to my current hair colour. Oh well...

I'm loving it. I'm not good at styling it yet but I'm trying. Gotta get the hang of it first.

Left to right: Blood? BLOOD?!?; Ta daaa, a bodyless head. Kidding, it's just a freaking wig

Something else in the mail. A costume for Halloween!! Not my original choice but my first order was cancelled and my money refunded, had to search for another costume asap so this was in. It's in no way revealing or sexy but it'll have to do for now.

Can't wait for Saturday...

Another non-beauty related post - BOO!

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens

Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad

- My favourite Things, The sound of music

Things have been looking up for me lately I'm happy to say. I've finally gotten an job offer. The burden on my shoulders has started to melt off little by little, the guilt has slowly lifted as well.

Overall, I've been happier and I find myself grinning like an idiot by myself in my room. Talking to Elyn and finally telling E briefly about my problems (yes she noticed but as usual never asked but waited for me to tell) helped a lot. I'm thankful for my friends support at this point because I don't think I would have been able to handle this alone. Not that I didn't try but with friends, it made things much easier and less stressful.

Elyn, thanks for the talk that day. You always ease my burdens. I understand that it's E's turn to face her own problems and I wanted her to know I'll always stand by her.

Even if heaven was to turn against you, I'll stand by you till the end

I apologize if I unexpectedly and unintentionally added some burdens on your shoulders. If there is anyway for me to help you with yours, I would, please do let me know.

You're already blessed with many talents my love, you do not need another lesson from me (FYI I am still learning from my kid) , so I am going to skip that. all you need is to be reminded, you have the tendency to forget things easily and I often find you do not give yourself enough credits, stop beating yourself up.... have a kitkat take a break......and after that move your butt....go out live your life......

- To Ashley, SERENDIPITY

There are lots of people with potty mouth out there so it's nice to be reminded every once a while that we don't belong in the junk yard or have a lifetime membership for the 'Losers Club'.

That aside, my search for a hand phone intensify when I realize that I was having problem receiving signals and the complaints from friends is starting to overwhelm me. So it was off to Perangin Mall with Kern. Talk about bad luck, found out that the Nokia 5530 in white and pink is not avaliable in M'sia. Great! Thanks! I don't want the red and black because it reminded me of a certain someone's phone. Someone I nearly flipped a table at while playing Catan. The white and blue didn't appeal to me at all, so forget that.

The Hello Kitty phone I saw online and fell in love with was deemed 'unsuitable' for work which I agreed so that's scrap that too. Then there's the Nokia E71, a little out of budget for that one. ARGH. Sounds like it's back to the drawing board. I think it'll be cool to have a dictionary of purely vulgar words because I could really like to use it right about now.

My hair, finally got off my lazy ass and got my mom to dyed it for me again. Went off to chat online and promptly forgot about it. 20 minutes became 45 minutes. Pure panic. But it wasn't too bad I guess at least let me pretend it's fine.

It actually looks almost like my previous hair colour so there wasn't much changes. BOO! I was actually hoping it was lighter but I'm glad it wasn't.

The dreams that came and went..

Today started bad. Woke up all grouchy and was rude to some poor person who so happen to call me and woke me up. My deepest, sincerest apology to the above said person. The afternoon was fine. Receive some heart thumping news and before I could roll over and die with foam coming out of my mouth, E called. Later, as Kern dropped me home, I saw two friendly neighborhood dogs barking at something just outside our fence.

Urk!

Feeling nosy I went over, only to see one scrawny cream colour kitten with blue eyes (Jiun says all kitten has blue eyes; I didn't know that =_=;;) curled up in the corner looking all fragile and scared. The dogs refused to leave the poor thing alone and I didn't want to hit them because these two dogs are very friendly dogs and has been around the neighborhood for quite some time. I had to spray the dogs with a hose to get them away and then carried the poor kitten into the house.

Rushed in and saw that the only person I knew that owned a cat was luckily online. Yay! Bombarded the poor person with questions and went off to feed the kitty. Poor thing. I keep hoping that the mom would come collect it. *sigh* Now it's in some corner of my house hiding.

Went out to meet Kern and friends later in the night and I was really happy when a friend of mine joined us. We ended up driving around just talking. The talks reminded me of an entry I did some time ago but never posted. Decided that perhaps, I should so...

17/9
Growing up, I'm sure everyone aspired to be something or someone. Something as in a doctor, a vet or one thing or another.

Back when I was in high school, I couldn't wait for me to finish my studies and start my life. I must admit that I never enjoyed school, some say it's the happiest time of our life but for me, getting my cert and walking out from the school could chalk as my happiest. I never looked back nor have I set foot in that place after that day.

My grandmother used to own a seafood restaurant just in front of the beach and it was extremely successful, I grew up surrounded by the beach, endless seas, seafood and coffee. My grandmother, my mom and I are all coffee addicts. I guess it's no surprise that I too wanted to own a little cafe of my own one day, nothing fancy, nothing to do with smelly crabs or prawns (I actually love the smell, reminds me of my grandma, lol) but a quaint English cafe serving delicious cakes, cookies and tea or coffee served in fancy porcelain.

I've worked in a bank, a printing press, a radio station and despite it all, my one true love remains in the F&B line. I've enjoyed my time immensely working in Starbucks (but I had one shitty ass control freak manager) and growing up, being a make up artist has never even crossed my mind till recently. I've been lost, confused and unsure of my own talent and where my strength lies and this stresses me up. Like most people suspects, 3 months of not working is indeed draining my savings. If I were to make a decision, I need to make it quick but I'm not ready yet. So what now?

Perhaps some of you are already on your way to achieving your dream or have already achieved it while here I am, still sitting on my big ass wondering if my day will ever come.

Gorgeous TJ

Happy Birthday my sweets! Hope you had a good one!
Lots of love, gorgeous xoxo

Ban on sale of beer and condom in convenience store

As long as I have a cup of coffee in one hand and the other is holding a bar of chocolate, life is perfect. It doesn't matter if I have another interview tomorrow, or the facts that I'm fat and bored, nothing else matters, the world is finally peaceful and then.. I find this:

The Star Newspaper - Zulkifli Noordin, known for his firebrand politics, has been lambasted for calling for a ban on sale of beer and condom in convenience stores. -Malaysia-Today

It's official, some people needs a time machine to go right back with the dinosaurs. They would so fit in. This is such a funny country, can we finally set some kind of qualification on those who wants to be politicians with religious study not being counted.

Edited: WTF, he's a lawyer by profession. Oops, I better go edit out all my vulgar words. Don't wanna receive any 'love' letters telling me he wants to see me in court and bring a large stack of money. I'll probably end up bring along a large stack of Hell Money (used during Hungry Ghost Month) since that's all I can afford. I'm poor. Still a lawyer who studied in New Zealand and saying this shit?!

Picture taken from Pennylicious
What? You're suing me for a Million? Here's a Trillion (sorry, I lost count after the 9th digit),
Keep the change!

If they are not trying to ban yoga *snort*, they are trying to ban beer and condoms from convenience stores. What's next? Oh I know, Hello Kitty since it's worshiped by females all around Malaysia. Yes yes, HK is definitely next and rightfully so.. take that you...Cat!

I could probably understand the beer part but condoms?

Malaysian AIDS Council executive director Bakhtiar Talhah said condoms had proven effective in curbing HIV/AIDS and other sexually transmitted diseases.

“Convenience is the key in encouraging condom use,” he said.

-Malaysia-Today

Exactly! If it's not the convenience store then where should we buy condoms from?
Only at supermarkets?

But..but..they close at 10pm!

Hospitals?

I doubt it, they doctors are too busy with injured, sick and dead bodies to want to deal with a bunch of bored, horny people.

Police stations?

Right, photostat your I.C (Identification Card) fill in your name, your partner's name, where and when, possible time limit and positions you might be trying out. How many packets taken and when you're done, kindly return to the police station to return the remaining unused packets to get some sort of refund. Sign here and have fun.

Oh, you might probably want to bring along your marriage certificate. Just in case.

Yup, that sounds about right since I sometimes get the impression that the policemen in the station seems a little free and bored. This might give them something to be busy about. Yup, this is getting thumbs up from me.

*rolls eyes and opens the world atlas to find a nice place to migrate to*

Why do I get the strange feeling that he's probably a closet bukkake fan... Nahhhh!!

Edit 2: This is actually months old news but I learnt about it yesterday and I'm still hopping mad about it

Think positive!!

I must admit I'm feeling a little odd lately. From comments I know I have not really been myself of late as well. I've been blur, confused, worried and tired. Oh and if you're expecting all rainbows, sunshine and my little ponies flying around, please don't. My life ain't all that colourful.

I sit here and wonder if my bout of depression is rearing it's ugly head again. It's been some time and I find it harder and harder to smile or have any reasons to smile anymore. I've been lucky, it's nothing bad, only two people noticed it so far. When Mines kept asking me if everything was okay and why I seems so upset, I didn't think there was anything wrong with myself but when Elyn said it, I guess it just sorta hit me that it's been a while since I'm really happy.

There are time when I have mood swings. One minute, I'm really happy, the next, anxious and crying. Worst, I'm not very sure why I'm acting this way. Everything looks fine and sunny from the outside so why is there thunderclouds in my room?

It seems like all I want to do lately is sleep and be left alone. My pillows and my bed is everything I need.yet a part of me wants to drag myself out of bed, go out with friends and pretend there is nothing wrong.

I do know that I'm not being depressive for no reason, I do have reasons and I AM worried but still *slaps self* Positive, must think positive!

I must think of happy things, yes yes. Happy things will bring good things. I have a EDM mineral foundation coming in on Tuesday, my wig that I've ordered a gazillion years ago might be coming before Halloween, I've somewhat found my Halloween costume (unfortunately the person I wanna whip *hint* ain't coming, BOOOO) and I've also somewhat found out what handphone I might get to replace my old cranky phone.

Uhhh.. I think my tongue got twisted pretty badly

What else is there to do when I need to keep my mind occupied and not think too much, easy, clean my freaking room. It's interesting to see what kind of rubbish I ended up digging from my room. For one, I manage to dig up my mom's Simple French ...book. Why on earth would we have this? For one, mom wanted to brush up on her long forgotten French. She stayed in Paris and London (alternating between the two) when she was 18 years old to "study" and I knew she had a French boyfriend there. How pathetic is my life? I'm 25 years old and the furthest I've been is Netherlands and I've never seen snow in my entire life!

Other things I managed to dig up was a gift from a 'so called admirer'. Back then, whenever I'm free I would draw, for my birthday, the guy actually took one of my half finishes drawings and coloured, added the background and framed it for me. Sweet he is, along with annoying *sigh*

Left to right: The final piece; In the process of the colouring

Still, he's one of the funniest person around. Seriously. Why? I'll tell you why. Here's the scenario:

Me: You're pissing me off...
The Guy checks online dictionary then proceeds to hurriedly message Elisa
The guy: Why did Ashley says she wants to urinate on me?
Elisa: ... *speechless*

Scenario 2:

Me: Don't get cocky with me
The guy: I like chocolate cocky <--(Mistaken cocky for Pocky, the japanese chocolate covered biscuits)
Me: ...*eyes goes wide before finally figures out what he actually meant*

But anyway, the picture certainly wasn't my best drawing since it was originally just a doodle. There was some parts I wish I noticed earlier and corrected but still, it was all done without my knowledge and I had no time to correct these errors. I appreciated his effort and all but in the end, something are just never meant to be.

Other things I managed to dug up are bars of soaps (Yes, I have a 'thing' for soaps, candles, Yes, I have a 'thing' for candles too) and endless comic books, old school report cards and test papers that is not fit for any eyes least you get blinded by the 'colours')

As for my make up, while everyone is having fun making bronzey EOTDs and all, I'm still stuck in my lazy EOTD. It's still the same old, same old. Day in, day out, this is all I do. Fast, quick and very, very lazy.

Mom headed to Gurney P. today an came home and asked if anyone wanted a hair dryer. We previously had one and it was getting a little troublesome everytime me or Pinky Doodle Doo wants to use it. Since I shouted the fastest and loudest, I got it. I loudly shouted that it had better be PINK! and lo and behold, my mom grinned and handed my my very own PINK hair dryer. LOL.

Later, me and Pinky headed to Gurney P. to do our own shopping. I bought what I wanted which was the Hoyu Beauteen hair dye. I bought the one in Milk Tea Beige cause it sounded so delicious. I kept having to remind myself it's not drinkable and it's not some tea mix.

My current hair colour. Guess I'll dye my hair next week or something

Before that, I searched the internet to get a rough idea on how the colour was, I "smartly" typed Preteen instead of Beauteen and ended up getting some erm, funky websites if you know what I mean. I'm so freaking smart.

So how am I feeling? Much much better.